I used to live by the rede.

But with the shitty life i'm living right now,i have no idea how to climb out and live that way again.

Its a tad hard not to be negative when everything around you is crumbling. I can see the hairline cracks in my perfect world but i cant do anything about it. Its quite sad actually.

More than ever, all i want to do nowadays is just to retreat back in my shell and stay there. I dont feel like i'm worth anything.

I've lost the ability to do anything worthwhile.

*laughs* I'm a coward at heart. I cant do anything right. Not even to end it. Maybe someday. In the meantime i'll continue fighting whatever demons i have inside.